There comes a time in your life where despite all the efforts, all the sacrifices, all the love, all the hopes and all the dreams, one will have to give up and just walk away.
Thinking back, I realize I haven't been fortunate when it came to love and relationships. Even though the relationships in my life lasted long, they always had an end. I wouldn't deny that I have been blessed with the best of people in my life and with some of the most beautiful moments over the years, but somehow the partners I've chosen could not walk into the future with me. And even though the endings to my breakups weren't as cold as most breakups are, it hurt me every time to undergo this feeling that sometimes I may feel I was made to be alone.
Could I have continued waiting and trying to make it work? Of course, but I guess "Once the elastic breaks. You can re-tie it, but there is now a knot, and suddenly that perfect perception of the other person is slightly tainted. Sometimes we can recover from this, and sometimes we can't. "
And I guess I've come to a point where I realize that we cannot recover from this. Hence we have to move on.
Do I regret loving? Do I regret falling?
Not at all, simply because I feel that all this is just a phase in life and things I need to undergo to find the right one finally. The feeling of falling in love and staying in love is so wonderful that I'd do it repeatedly. Although there is a saying that in life, don't get too attached to people or things cause when you lose what you're connected to, you are bound to break. I'd still give love my all cause I believe it's not love and not a relationship if you hold back. And if it's not meant to be and if I was bound to be hurt again, I'd know in the end, I'd learn to be wiser, more mature, and it would give me a clearer picture of the kind of man I want in my life.
I have always showered more love than my relationship partner, not expecting much in return. Still, I guess the least I expected was the appreciation and for that one not to walk away when the relationship seemed rocky. To not give up on all the love and efforts put in place. At least not give up without a fight and instead help and try to fix it together as one.
The saying "for a relationship to work, we got to work on the relationship" makes absolute sense.
When nothing is left to do, and all has been said and done, it is best to walk away, although it may seem easier to continue fighting for a familiar face and be in a comfortable place than to let go and start all over.
People deal with breakups in many ways, and I guess there isn't a perfect way to get over it.
For me, I am aware of the loss, and I am clear about what I am losing, and I know I am hurting. At the same time, I see a reason, a new beginning, and I am trying to come out of it in the best way, in a way that leaves me no confusion and in a way that will uplift me more than bring me down.
In simple words, I'm healing the way I feel I should recover, and I want to heal well, to open my heart again to someone who deserves the pure undivided love in me and for me to accept his love and start a brand new story someday.
Monday, April 16, 2012
Walking Away to a New Begining..
There comes a time in your life where despite all the efforts, all the sacrifices, all the love, all the hopes and all the dreams, one will have to give up and just walk away.
Thinking back, I realize I haven't been fortunate when it came to love and relationships. Even though the relationships in my life lasted long, they always had an end. I wouldn't deny that I have been blessed with the best of people in my life and with some of the most beautiful moments over the years, but somehow the partners I've chosen could not walk into the future with me. And even though the endings to my breakups weren't as cold as most breakups are, it hurt me every time to undergo this feeling that sometimes I may feel I was made to be alone.
Could I have continued waiting and trying to make it work? Of course, but I guess "Once the elastic breaks. You can re-tie it, but there is now a knot, and suddenly that perfect perception of the other person is slightly tainted. Sometimes we can recover from this, and sometimes we can't. "
And I guess I've come to a point where I realize that we cannot recover from this. Hence we have to move on.
Do I regret loving? Do I regret falling?
Not at all, simply because I feel that all this is just a phase in life and things I need to undergo to find the right one finally. The feeling of falling in love and staying in love is so wonderful that I'd do it repeatedly. Although there is a saying that in life, don't get too attached to people or things cause when you lose what you're connected to, you are bound to break. I'd still give love my all cause I believe it's not love and not a relationship if you hold back. And if it's not meant to be and if I was bound to be hurt again, I'd know in the end, I'd learn to be wiser, more mature, and it would give me a clearer picture of the kind of man I want in my life.
I have always showered more love than my relationship partner, not expecting much in return. Still, I guess the least I expected was the appreciation and for that one not to walk away when the relationship seemed rocky. To not give up on all the love and efforts put in place. At least not give up without a fight and instead help and try to fix it together as one.
The saying "for a relationship to work, we got to work on the relationship" makes absolute sense.
When nothing is left to do, and all has been said and done, it is best to walk away, although it may seem easier to continue fighting for a familiar face and be in a comfortable place than to let go and start all over.
People deal with breakups in many ways, and I guess there isn't a perfect way to get over it.
For me, I am aware of the loss, and I am clear about what I am losing, and I know I am hurting. At the same time, I see a reason, a new beginning, and I am trying to come out of it in the best way, in a way that leaves me no confusion and in a way that will uplift me more than bring me down.
In simple words, I'm healing the way I feel I should recover, and I want to heal well, to open my heart again to someone who deserves the pure undivided love in me and for me to accept his love and start a brand new story someday.
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I am glad you dont blame yourself for this. Its not you, its me who is immature enough to appreciate the love you give me. I believe you need a new beginning with a new partner who will appreciate and probably love you more than you love him; if not at least love you the same. I wish you all the best and may you find the right soulmate soon. Remember, i will always stand by you no matter what and be shoulder for you to come out of this. I will never stop loving you. Its diificult for me to make the choice i made, but its more difficult to see you unhappy. Forgive me if i have in our journey, hurt you alot. I can really be a pain sometimes. You will remain in my heart forever.
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